舍不得 - 弦子

第一次你陪我坐着 我的手心是空空的 
我知道那些简讯声你努力藏着 还怕我难过 

不追问到底为什么 是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的 
但我们却怎么 一起哭了 

我舍不得 可是时间回不去了 
爱你很值得 只是该停了 
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得 最后一次抱紧你了 
我们错过的 错了就错了 
不用担心我 我不爱你了 

至少你记忆里的我 是微笑的 
亲爱的 有你牵着我的那些日子 
真的好快乐 
我舍不得 可是时间回不去了 
爱你很值得 只是该停了 
没有我你要好好的 
我舍不得 最后一次抱紧你了 
我们错过的 错了就错了 
不用担心我 我走了 

从令到一的爱

还记得第一次见面的我们是在哪里吗？
就在学院里 的毕业典礼
很快我们就认识一年了
刚开始的印象 还不错
因为我认为你真的是个好男人
当相处蛮久了
关系也开始发展了
爱也从令到一
虽然我不能给你百分百的爱
但，至少有一份的爱
也许你认为 一份的爱并不多
所以你嫌弃了我
也抛弃了我
谢谢你曾经给我的爱和关心
你真的是的好男人

但，好男人并不多
也很快将会被抢走
虽然我会很遗憾
也很伤心
只能祝福你们美好和快乐
到底我在说什么啊？
话语真的退步了很多
谢谢收看~ xoxo

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Wondering what is the picture about?

Let me translate ;

"The difference between ninety-nine and one hundred percent love, is not a big deal. But, from zero to one percent love, is about the 'none' and 'one' "

This photo is taken from a charity, TzuChi monthly magazine

Inside can found a lot of caring,

and love from the charity to the need one

It's nice to read it when free

Too bad I only can read few Chinese words

Recently keep watching Gossip Girl

which I had watched from Season 1 

Just finish my Season 2 

and now continuing to Season 3

Ahhh... I hope Season 4 is coming soon

and I wanna see Sex and The City 2~

It's in the cinema now T.T

wuuuuu.... perhaps I will die for it!

Latest me~

 

Trying to put watermark in my photos now~ 

so, there will be no more cloning or imitating case to happen~ 

xoxo.... gossip girl

Sick oF mE

Geezzz... Do I have to act like this everytime he came to me? Goshh... So hate myself. Only myself knew what I did and what I'm thinking. Honestly what the hell all these things about? So hate to stalk people facebook profile. But I can't make myself DON'T! At last I only saw something making this jealous baby had inexpressibly mood. 

Argghhhh.... Even busy working also can't make myself forget the time. Yet only make my mind worst. I don't like to see the status of him. I don't like to see things she posted. I hate when I only can see 200++ pictures while total is almost 400 pictures. There is a lot of things I still don't know yet. A lot of things I knew nothing bout you. If I continue stalking your profile, I might go crazy. Sudden feeling wanna close my facebook =.= and don't want to ever see you in any place anymore. But I can't do that. I miss you so much.... A lot, a lot than before....

Question is, why I still care so much? I mean nothing to him but he means a lot to me. Although truth is like that, but what am I expecting? C'mon baby, WAKE UP!!! The time with him had passed already. The time promised is 3 months only. Now go back to your normal life and forget this emo-ing mind. Life like tomorrow is a better day. That tomorrow will be another happy-go-lucky life..

He is the No.1

Although had removed him from friend list, yet I still can view his profile
Although didn't view his pictures, yet I still missing him a lot
Memories with him pops up on my mind
I still remember that time you asked my opinion which specs look nice on you
But I laughed evilly when you put on the black one
Actually you look good on both
Really...

In my mind you really are a Mr. Right
How could I believe you didn't even had a girlfriend before me
For me, you are good in everything
Studies, which makes me envy a lot
You are such a freak :) just kidding
I can see you had a good body figure, even you don't have the six pack
Short hair or long hair, you still look smart
No matter how much you had changed, I still can't change my feeling towards you
No matter how much you hurt me, I still will no mad at you
No matter where you went, I can't even reach you

I missed the time together with you
Although just a short while, but I really appreciate it
I do miss you a lot...
But I didn't even brave enough to speak this to you
It's the first time I had a strong feeling toward a guy
A feeling that can drives me crazy
A feeling that always make me smile alone
A feeling that make me cry alone
I hate this feeling
I hate getting close to you
I hate when you so cold to me
I hate when you ignore me
I hate seeing 'some' pictures
I hate.... Yet I still love you



Perhaps it's true that my friend said bout me
I don't know how to express my feeling
I don't even care guy's feeling
I don't know how to reply the action of his
I don't have the warm feeling
I have no idea on guy's thinking
I am such a jerk and stone-heart
Am I?

I am sorry I can't promise anything to you
I am sorry I can't keep my promise to you
I am sorry of what I had done to you
I am sorry what I did
I am sorry....

Till now I still can remember the last night with you
I didn't even mad at you before
I just mad at myself...
But I still mad at you for coming that night
Even you will be having exam the next day
Yet, I will still pray for you
Wishing you good luck in your degree
I know you are a freak, and you can do better
It just a routine for me to remember you
Till here,
Bear, please let me forget you

Happiness doesn't last long

Happiness comes fast and goes fast. Waking up this afternoon and open my Facebook, a bit shock of me when saw my friend request. I didn't care much so I just approve it. Till just now I just had my time for fully browse into his profile. First, he is still using his old profile picture. Second, status In Relationship. Third, new tagged photo seems so cool~

What should I say now... My hand can't even stop clicking his pictures and keep clicking more and more. Perhaps I'm already fully crazy about him, something inexpressibly words and this feeling driving me out of my world. I had enough all these... Please, someone or something to stop me now. I'm going insane if continue like this.... I'm sorry. I had to end it likes this. It's better for me to stay away from you. Although it's hard for me, but I'm trying very hard now.... So please forgive what I had done. P.S 4 5683 968

I'm sorry for being so mean to you... It's my bad to remove you again. But I can't really having you here. It's killing me slowly. I'm such a jealous baby.... miss you so much

Sayonaraaa~

Blogging in the airport is not a bad idea huh? This the the true moment of the last memory in Penang and Aimst, the place full of memories. Last saturday dinner was a bit boring. But it was rocks at the end. We, the foundation students, actually clubbing inside the exam hall! What the... We all felt the night was so much fun and hope it is never-ending night. Too bad for them who missed the dinner.

My ticket

On the main entrance

Doing princess style

So red

Yeah~

Yesterday, I've moved out from the hostel, bringing my things and rent a hotel nearby the town. It was the last day I in SP. Watched All's Well Ends Well Too 2010 alone in Central Square. Actually planned to watch in the new cinema in Village Mall, but it was too far. So, I still had time shopping unwanted things in CS for the last time.

See the ants =.= so big

Rubbish outside my door~ spotted my Rokcy

This is from other floor

Little kitten on down floor

Miaw~

The night was unbelievable... My wish did come true, to meet 'him' for the last time. I yet still can't even resist him. I miss him so much and I'm going to miss him later. Thanks for your advise me to continue my study. If I can, sure I will come back to Aimst. But I don't have the confident to study anymore. Sorry for disappointing you. Felt really happy yesterday night ^^ Can't even expressed how my feeling is, and I still can hide it nicely ^^ hahaa.... Lastly, wanna say goodbye to you all, goodbye Penang, goodbye Aimst, goodbye Jaya Catering- thanks for your food, even I don't had them, goodbye my new friends and lastly goodbye my dear J....

Sad Chap Goh Mei

That's the end of CNY mood. For me, I had a pretty bad mood today. As I remember, today is the one month anniversary I said goodbye to 'him' and ever since that I never contact him anymore. I guess this is the end of all. I saw his pictures in Facebook via my friend's since I deleted him already. He still cool as usual. Miss him a lot...

Tomorrow here comes the final exam of my studies. Didn't have the mood to study at all. Just do my best. Now I didn't have the will to continue studies in here anymore. Here planted memories of him. The shadow of him... The footsteps of him....

Thanks for giving me this love... I knew sometimes you do care about me. Your actions shows them. Even you will never read this, but I don't hope you will come to this blog. The scar of my heart is still healing. Yet I still will watching you over time. I will always love you.... as a friend

Phamarcy Guy

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A Lonely Night Had End

Today's dinner was a lonely dinner... Even the 'mak cik' in Jaya Catering also ask, "No going back celebrate kah? " (in Malay). Then I explained why. Jaya Catering also knew that all Chinese will going back and had a reunion dinner, so they were not serving Chinese food. Just left Malay, Indian and Vege food choices.

Afterwards, I called to my grandmother in Seremban, and greet her Happy CNY. Then I called to my mom and later I messaged my father. He called me back asked why no go uncle's place? Kinda lazy to move around during the holiday although I am the type love to travel. Don't know why the holiday mood is not felt by now. Perhaps I'm all alone...

Back room, started to online again. Midnight sharp can heard a slightly sound of 'piuuuuu~ boom!' The fireworks! Damn I so miss to watch fireworks. I love to see fireworks around. Having a nice beer in the garden and watched fireworks from neighborhoods was my memories in last time CNY. I wanna had alcohol~ I wanna see fireworks~

But still got a lot of friends sending me a greeting message. And I do replied all of them. So sad I didn't even receive any message from J. During new year he did sent a greeting to me. At least I'm still on his mind that time. But now, perhaps I'm already in the dustbin already. I don't want to greet you happy CNY but I wanna greet you Happy Valentine my bear~

To tell the truth I've never been actually celebrating Valentine's Day or even any other occasional day with the dearest one. That's me... A 3-months relationship is a limit time for me. I said to myself, I'll never regret the things that had happened. What goes around, just let it go. Never force it, never blame it. Only a wish from deep heart to it... Amin

pssst: Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese friends and Happy Valentine's to all couples and single's

break-up again

today officially being single again.... before i didnt write anything bout him because i know he got read my blog. but now i dont think he'll able to see this blog again. after a long time, i cant stand anymore about him... the coldness of him... the uncaring of him...

k: hey, we now consider normal friend ma?
j: erm why? got people chase u?
k: no la... just ask only
j: oic. i thought got
k: dont change topic la... how jek?
j: i dont know la. what u think? (how come u dont know?)
k: no idea also. thats why i ask u
j: hmm... u have complicated friends le. i also dont know. haha (still laughing at there! my tears is falling down now!)
k: then i know le. bye
j: but we still friends... no meh? or you want in open relationship..

what the! who do you think i am?a slut girl? so sad and felt cant hang on anymore... i hate this place... i hate being alone! i dont want to come back this stupid place again! im out of here!